2010年6月26日星期六

[那天父亲节的]








整个星期没来这里luu...* ^^ 可是常常上来看朋友的部落格---自己有点点懒惰写keke
这几天...看起来自己有点点忙似的~
补习啦,谈天啦...还有很多...一天一天的时间也过得很快
其实可以感觉得到时间像是缩短了一半...
看着阳光逐渐在清晨渐升上...再看见阳光逐渐在黄昏里降下
都过得很快耶...

emm...最近时常很爱发些小姐脾气>.<
在家就时常和妈妈谈天---放学回到家时候
而...晚上爸爸在茶桌泡茶时候,我就和爸爸聊天
oh man...有时候还会聊到哭~
就从开学~拿到成绩那一刻开始
我不能接受!
我不能忍辱!
没有东西...可以支撑我的眼泪
像...mummy 啊,说到...以前我就是这样小小时候...的成绩,要求
然后再说...及格就好嘛~ "我不能接受这句话"
所以我从开始说...我不能考得太好---当初!
妈妈说到那些就那眼泪都流下来了...心被压得很难呼吸...
那时候...很辛苦很辛苦...!
有时候啊...就连想都会流泪~ 写部落也会流泪...
我不知道躲几天我会怎么去接受我排行的名次...
我的成绩...我真的不能...面对!
i hate it !!!
huh...hurt terribly..~
我根本不想去面对着一些...一丁点儿也不想~真的...
不想...!!
不想这些...让我出现什么问题...

不说这个...会想下^^父亲节那天
我们黄家发生了一些些蛮好笑的东西...haha
那天傍晚,我们三辆车去kajang吃晚餐~庆祝 father's day^^
路途很开心...我和妹妹做大叔的---还有婆婆爷爷
在车里面...我们就聊到艺人
叔叔就业妹妹argue^^ 他强调说周润发很有型,不是帅~
而张国荣就全部艺人最好看的一个...只是去世了罢了
妹妹就说一大堆不是的...哈哈~
婆婆爷爷就赞成说周润发好看...haha^^
我听^^
之后就...谈到说问叔叔他看了 karate kid 了没?
他说没有人陪他看...^^
结果他塞了钱给我帮他买票...四张
都是他的侄子侄女陪他看..~ 其时候时候...
会不停的让我感觉到...很心疼叔叔
很怕他一个人...~ 感觉很无聊...~
妈妈姑姑他们说叔叔他很疼我...
我小小的时候他送我的东西大多数都是名牌的..
连玩具也是...~
到现在大了...他和我会比较好谈
呼...
拉回去~ 越扯越远!
很多人...~可是一下下就等到位子了^^很不错噢...
这餐馆,你们要试试^^

他们在干么?^^只是看个照片...
全部瓜以为是什么...挤了过去^^哈哈

一个是要生日了得弟弟^^还有一个是堂弟~
他今年小六检定考试^^

没什么色相看起来^^
都是菇来的...
美没人者吃下去^^哈哈...因为它不吃菇的
这个...芽菜^^
才刚来没有多少秒...全部小的抢着拿了^^
他们爱...

十七个人我们^^ 分成两桌来吃
长辈一桌...小孩一桌^^

结果...>< 会的时候...
爸爸的车...开不了~ 
不知道为什么...


姑姑和婆婆^^在栏杆旁等着
爸爸叔叔他们认识人多^^
等人来修

之后他们说临时修不回><
结果就得留在那里了...车
我们就.....十七个人坐在两辆这里回家
还好啦^^不过...
幸好坐的是大车来...
lucky....




2010年6月21日星期一

started school

two weeks holiday was leave away from me...
that was over at all..~
today is a first day after started school, my mood was down a lot
i hate my life!
i hate started school!
i hate myself !
i don't wanna let it happen around of me...
who... can take me away ? I felt alone suddenly...
i scared i get the result of subject one by one in day...
i scare that feeling ... you know?
who know what am i thinking now?
I...really hate the situation now!

Today.. i get..~ math, econ...
i doesn't faced the result paper when the result was putting on my hand
At the moment, i wanna run away from classroom but...i can't!
my ..emm..~math... maybe it was fail~ i hearing the people around was getting high
and cheerfully about their math result..~ i should say: "Congratulations"

when i getting my econ paper.. i stun!
how come i..... get the result ..~ this result who can take easily~
y i'm not..~ man...!
i really .... disappointed!now... i fell on deaf ears~ i can't hear any notice 
into my ming from my friends, parents...
tears just welled up in my eyes and flow it
what can i said... and reply to urs....?

so sorry for that... i'm wrong~

now... just waiting my died day!
my..BM ~ my Bi...
just waiting...i can't do anythg... now
i really hate that...
i really hate now...

2010年6月18日星期五

The mines--- funny day

Today ... we was going to The Mines...--shopping centre
there was a the best destination to walk or whtever you wanna to do..~
emm.. i knew~ someone will be lonely when i was out of home to play
this morning, i was hard to wake up--haha, coz lazy 
but still have to do it..~ 
prepare my thg and comb up my hair... i date my neighbour go with me
she was my... old frenz...~ and also a neighbour opposite my house
her mum... was getting sick~ cancer... i think it may be a lung cancer
i scared to tell her tht my aunts was pass away at Jan31th...
so ..emm..i choose to keep it~ it would hurt her terribly
when the clock on the wall turn to 8:50a.m,i took my neighr++and went to
ktm station~ 
i saw meow sing sitting and listening songs on the place...
he said he reached at 8:30a.m!!oh man..! earlier...! 
so sorry about it.. huh~ never tell us..~ 
and later we went to buy a serdang tickets... --RM3.00~ one round
still okae~
after reach to the station, we realize the map was drawing byYK... is wrong==
haha.. but it's okae~ that i'm also felt thankful about her map..~ 
we found it! at the last..hahaha

when we in the train.. i introduce my frenz to meow sing and kai hsien ~
haha.. it was so shy for tht..~ 
emm.. but it's nice! have conversation, have fun, have laugh... more and more
Ohh...haha~ 1st buyer in The mines..~ i think!haha...---is meow sing
he bought a spac~ 
than... we all are finding for our breakfast~
at the last moment, do you guess it? where my frenzz taken their breakfast?? aHA
kENNY ROAGERS~ haha... 
what la man..~ so rich ....
when i looked at the menu.. i stunned==
super.... expensive~ so lucky tht i eating vege,....right??^^haha
my frenz... wan ting^^
eat the same with meow sing..just abit different with the soup on the chicken~
other one...hor~ terrible ! eat 1 set.. man..~ he can eat a lot a lot..~
haha... the attituide when he's eating there was...... not so good looking..~haha^^
the sound of eating was loud~ haha.. maybe guys is always like tht...~

erm... actually~ i scared my frenz... cannot join in to our conversation~
or...not so free to join with us..~ i scared i let her boring there
huh.. lucky that she was not that i worry of..~haha
After that, we continue to walk and it can help three of them digese the fat inside their stomoch!
i'm comfirm tht can be fat ~ if after eating that and just sittting there for a long time

at the third floor...~ we are finding the book fair...~ 
coz... no one can find it..~ 
i asking to the chinese girl who was selling a make up products~
bad... she also not comfirm where is it located~
nevermind... just follow her arrow to the side
find it! but the book fair... at the hall was finish and closed~
today have a sami coming to give a speech~ buddha
later... that two crazy guys said and support to their comment~
wanna see movie...~  wht.....
i scared my frenzz... don't..~ so i straightly reject their idea
and... i dont know weather ... wanna see not~

and so... my frenz...~ follows both crazy guys mental..==
she said... wanna see ~
The karate kid~ so... i said nothing==
thn... all buying tickets ~
2:30p.m~ finish movie..~ huh... cold..~ 
man.. scared cold..~ 
if really know wanna see movie at their... i sure bring jackets==
outside the cinema... i saw twilight...esclips~
coming soon at July 8!!!
wow... haizz...~ see later la~
sometimes... something you giving more hopes inside will hurt you terribly~
and then... we come out and meet yoke ching..~ 
haha... like long time never see her..~ when looking forher.. suddenly felt so miss her
haha.. mental~
emm.. we going to see girl's shirt ~ and the two guys ... haha
walk theirselves
after we meet again... both of them taking two plastic bag...
bought shirt and short==~rich man..~ fast
i wanna buy shoe...~
but never buy~haha
thn.. meow sing...said he bangkrap..~ haha.. so lunch he was not taken
coz... he was the most buyer^^
thn.... when 4.15p.m
we was going back~ 
coz my frenz wanna tuition..~ at 7pm
emm.. so ... go together ~
on the way... all said next time don't wan go meet valley.. wanna come the mines..haha
is it me clever??^^ 
i decide to come... yoke ching decide to plan time.
haha

2010年6月14日星期一

心情...

感觉自己在这两个星期的假期间都过着西式的日子...
也是我想要的...
emm...从我开始慢慢成长时候...
就开始偏爱西式的东西...包括:房子,餐具,风俗,习惯
渐渐爱上了...
这假期里间我看了不少...好几部英文片了
好投入在剧情当中...
端着咖啡坐在咖啡厅馆里...桌上放着一部笔记电脑
特别喜欢...西式的衣着^^
便装...套上一件长长的外套~ 带上一个包包
就可以出门了...很快
看着看着...也把自己陶醉在过着外国的日子了...


其实...好想好想和朋友们在咖啡厅聊着喝着...
那感觉很好
一起看看衣购物...~
朋友们都很爽快很自然的...感觉很自在的...
我渴望那样的生活....
我想移民...
我想要的都在外国...
好难的一个愿望...


最近和几位认识很久了的朋友...早上都去打球
球技有进步些啦^^
纳闷的时候当你出来...会有不想回家的感觉
试过好几次了...
有时候不想就那样呆在家...宁可选择自己走路出去
去哪里都好...
当从外头回到家...有时候会感觉轻松了~很舒服的感觉
一下下出现了一句...不停指责批评的咒语...~
挺进心里的双耳感觉很不舒服...~
顶撞了好几句....huh...
不知道是怎么了~
我好像天天都出去...当空闲在家的时候


看着我一篇又一篇的日志发青年宫上部落时候...读者会不会感觉很无奈?
还是会感觉很不耐烦?
都在诉苦...
huh...


好想到电影院看戏...
静静坐在那很安静得很轻松的看着一部戏....
有些朋友很少要看戏...
huh...
也出了蛮多部戏了最近...
都不曾看过...


哈哈...感觉自己最近有时候酷了很多...
也不是啦...
就...其实是开心地
可是就很皮...不妨笑脸在句子旁
不知道又哪里不正常了我....


我Ooo..最近才想
"最近我好像都没有什么心痛了...就有点点蛮得意的"
就...很乌鸦嘴
傍晚就痛了...痛到很...."刺激"^^


最近有个朋友啊...他也是这样的
他的啊...哈哈...
差不多完全像是heart attack 了的...haha


err...聊点别的
有个朋友好像...考机车失败了
看来他很紧张...常在她身边的朋友们...
都看得出来他有多兴奋...在面临考试之前
学着骑着机车时候...他很有信心的面对他的考试
没关系的...
我这个朋友^^...我知道对他来说...没有无所不能的东西
他很坚强...~我都知道他行的
加油!!!^^
下次一定考得上^^...

2010年6月7日星期一

蒙蔽的眼睛

坐在高高的露台石柱上
抬着头看上夜深天空里的星星不多了
双眼看不清前方事物
愈来愈模糊了
近视加深了么?
看上天的就只剩下那几颗音乐闪烁着的白光
看下来的街道依然宁静着
眼泪洋溢着在双眼里的眼眶中...
顿时不知道自己该往哪个方向
看着一滴滴透明色体的泪珠连续着掉落在脚下的陆地上
念头让我变成了另一个我
我固执了
我无理了
我野蛮了

坐在石柱上的我在对面方的街灯下反眏了黑色的影子
双脚想踏下追随着自己的影子
念头让我望着想法走去
我的生命像失去了越来越多颜色
我的生命像失去了越来越多选择

问题让我性格逐渐变了
手心紧握着拳头不停呼唤我要清醒面对
我越来越像会造问题不解决时的女生了...我感觉到了
我真的像了
今晚的夜空看不见我思念夜景
脑袋里的思维让我麻木的想倒下
让我想尝试从悬崖跌入谷底的滋味
双眼看的事物迷糊了...
好想....昏了过去
让我停顿在时间内一下下...
就一下下...一下下就好
让我想清醒想停下眼泪的时候再让我醒过来就好了

我没有能力
没有能力处理一件就像从地上拿一块小石头半的小事物

没有味觉的舌头
我尝试过了
没有颜色的日子
我尝试过了
没有欢笑的笑容
我尝试过了

我该变了...我该改变我了
酸.甜.苦.辣.的日子....
苦的永远受排策...为什么
因为不好过...
人总盼望好的预兆每天都会降到自己身上或另一半身上;
而苦的永远排策盼望不要遇上


我该变了  该变的像当初...
什么也不怕遇上...

2010年6月1日星期二

纳闷的心

天气都还蛮冷得也...
感冒感冒的鼻子...都打了好几个喷嚏了
今天没有考试---一瞬间感觉今天很难得
总会过得特别快.... 班上聚在一起的桌椅,聊天&温书
像过去的儿童节...
开心畅谈...那样的聚在一起让我不舍得分开
很温馨舒服的感觉...
除了你,像多了几份朋友的情分

谢谢你...


考试期间...之前...都好
每次每次又想到这儿的念头...最终还是被打掉了
也许那会是想躲避的感觉...可是怎么躲得着呢~


也会怕...怕考试考不好
怕自己没把握
就连自己最好的那科...或许就唯有那科~也没把握...
什么笑话.?老师改不好...是老师问题还是我出现问题
都有把我想...
怕自己会一下...跟不上
怕...呼不知道了
很压力...手心有时候不停紧紧抓着拳头...
心情很怕


迟点再上来好啦...看来没什么想呆太久...
明天靠最后一科了,最后一天了
也是...算最怕的一科了
会很惨...
同时...有个人和我调反了


说我想睡了...
是让你轻松点...自由点的温书
会让你集中些...
让你安心
专心做吧...
good night....